ISIS und OSIRIS the story of the great betrayal continues
Matriarch versus usurping patriarch versus matriarch !

Matriarch versus usurping patriarch versus matriarch !


Samson blues

woman woman woman



woman who of all creation KNOWS my vulnerability !


sweet woman


mistress



in your world I was born a bewildered babe
till I discovered power

and with a vengence I ousted you forcibly
the fathers ousted you unjustly

did you ever forgive?
could you ever forget and forgive?

woman woman

sweet woman

saviour woman ?


above all things before all gods

you swore

did you swear ?

sweet woman

saviour woman ?


of all that exists YOU know my vulnerability !


woman!

woman who knows beyond all artifice



to the world I may look the industructible hero
woman who knows beyond all sound and fury and feigned power !
you know my vulnerability
my closely guarded vulnerability
ar'nt we all your children?



mine is but a fleeting moment before I go


a fleeting moment of miracle

of impossiblity


will you..


will you betray me to the image?


to the gods ?

to the father ?

to the mother ?


will you harness me ...

for the image?

for the old gods ?

for the fathers

for the mother ?

will you smile and kiss

will you fondle and caress

and say

later love?

woman woman woman

sweet woman

deadly woman

later love?

beyond the domain of artifice and feigned power

my tears told you

my laughter

my anger

my flying

my crying

my trying told you


mine is but a fleeting moment


mine is an impossible miracle


mine is a perpetually threatened miracle


mine a near eternity of inherent instability

yours an eternity of inherent stability


yours a certainty unthreatened


yours a knowledge unfogged


yours a greatness unmarred

Isis

help me !

help me be this madness !

this formlessness !

help me create from this formlesschaos

the greatness that is your child !


and the greatness that is MY child !
and yours too if you would have i


help me sweet woman !

help me woman ...

wise

solemn

serene

blissful

ecstatic

all-knowing help me great originator

container

matrix

earth

help me in my incomparable journey !

help me while I live this uniqueness

help me ..all knowing

safe

stable

help me in my fleeting moment contradicting all

safety

contradicting all practicality

contradicting all knowledge

contradictiong all sanity



will you rush to give up at the first intimations
of pain , of insanity?

help me in my brief moment contradicting all purpose

help me in my brief moment contradicting all stability

help me in my brief moment contradicting all death

help this most dangerous most deadly most gentle madness

help me

love me

for but this brief moment

for but this brief and incomparable pulsation

help me
love me to the point where

your wisdom

serenity

safety



shall rule NATURALLY

rule all as it has

as it must

as it will

DEATH shall rule

in the end

as it ruled before this aberration

as it must

DEATH shall then rule joyously

for after all potential is flowered

CERTAINTY will be mine too joyously

and stability

and safety

and eternity

and the supreme ecstasy

of all-knowing FIXATION
barring mad creativity;

YES MALE SHALL


RISE TO THE ECSTACY OF THE ETERNAL FEMININE
the all-knowing feminine


not through abortion

not in strife

not through sordid competition in mutual trapping

not in struggle

(man's struggle is to live !)

great all-knowing woman YOU understand !

of all things YOU know my name

I trusting let you into the secret

And of all things you know my vulnerability

man's struggle is to live !


will you love and cherish, protect and guard?


Without suffocation, without patronising, without aggression?
will you forgive and forget?
that the fathers did attack and destroy you once UNJUSTLY

man's struggle is to live

to live to the full

this deadly gentle great and terrifying .. .. unpredictability .. !

it is man's primordial call

to fashion out of

this titanic chaos

the forms ..

the infinite forms the shapes .. the pulses .. the rhythms ..

the consonances .. the dissonances ..

the dance ..

the music

of creation

infinite inexhaustible

insatiable unstoppable

yet infinitely satisfying

infinitely resolving

infinitely healing

fulfillin


yes FUFILLING

REDEEMING

redeeming

to the point where life is all meaning

and death is NATURAL
and all violence for ever resolved
once upon a time that was the sublime dream of Amon and Amaunet

for as long as we dare
protect me in life from all-knowing certainty
it is the enemy of creativity

and then,
fulfilled.....

and then, and ONLY then are male and female dissolved into one

then, and only then can male and female be ecstatically united into one and none and all

and none and all fall hall

one ...


all all all all all


one and all one and all

one and none and all all all all all all all all

free me from all purpose

release me from this harness


LOVE ME


I am a fleeting moment

a dying vision

LOVE ME

I am so naked

I am so alive

LOVE ME I am so r a w

LOVE ME I am so t h r e a t e n e d

above all things! before all gods!

you promised

of all that there is

you are the greatest

and into you I poured the greatest of all treasures

... my secret

.... L I F E ...

... LIFE UNADULTERATED ...

... PURPOSELESS LIFE ! ...
LIFE without power wielding!
LIFE without power games!

LIFE BEING LIFE ! ...
LIFE as dreamed by Amaunet

.and then I lay helpless at your feet .......................

and when I lay helpless at your feet
you sheered my hair and my penis
t'is an old feud that I had forgotten and refused
I deliberately laid down all my armour and would not take guard!
and then I lay helpless on your breas

and you sold me to the powers

you sold me to death

the cold hard stone God

your god:
the FATHER

the fathers that had harmed you so
remember?

..and I woke up harnessed


and cried

and you smiled and you kissed

and you fondled and caressed

l a t e r l o v e
(how love when the greatness of the male is castrated and harnessed?)
;
ototototoi

and you smiled and you kissed

and you fondled and caressed

this IS love

and you let perform

and you said;

this is lov

otototoi


and sometimes in his desperation he too reasoned
this is LOV

and the dead walked on the living

abusing every space

and you smiled and you kissed

and you fondled and caressed

l a t e r love

and more love

and the dispossessed and the tormented thought

perhaps this is love

...................

and reigned the dead

over the living

ototototoi

this IS love

you smiled and kissed

oh how deeply y o u h a v e b e t r a y e d !

you fondled and caressed

and awaited the rewards

......of the stone God

of power

disguised death

cheating death

unconscious death

treacherous death

UNTIMELY DEATH!

idol death

U N N A T U R A L D E A T

s a d s a d d a y

o h h o w d e e p l y M a n i s b e t r a y e d


o h h o w d e e p l y W o m a n i s b e t r a y e d

ototototoi


ISIS BECOMES SALOME :


what dullness of the heart befell you when you decided that what the world owed Osiris was proper funeral rites and a few shrines dedicated to his name ?


you danced to the dead

for admiration

for confirmation

for absolution

protection

composition

perpetuation

procreation

for f e a r

...AND THEY GAVE YOU ALL....
and funeral rites for the mangled corpse of Osiris and a few golden shrines


and your fragile fingers handled a man's skull disembodied


you handed the fathers a man's skull and gained their....... approval..............

you waved a man's skull !



........and a cheering audience
.......and a howling crowd
what a pleasing sense of POWER!

ototototoi



A P P R O V A L !
admission to the flock at a most exalted rank!

sad sad destiny

sad sad age


A P P R O V A L !

sad sad day

and sad age

what meagre price for b e t r a y a l

w h a t m e a g r e p r i c e f o r

m a n !

what meagre price for the man in YOU

what meagre price for WOMAN

what crazy defeat for the primordial earth WOMAN!
the primordial mother ally privy to Amaunet's dream: man's triumph is to LIVE
what misconceived deception to substitute all with funeral rites and golden shrine

above all things? before all gods??YOU SWORE

WHAT INCOMPREHENSIBLE DEFEAT !


of all that exists you know me by name


W O M A N W O M A N W O MA N


you know my vulnerability


but you smiled and kissed


and you fondled and caressed


you kissed the harness

you kissed the chain


you kissed the skull


you kissed the brain
YOU DANCED TEN PACES IN THE RAIN


and you said


this IS love

and if you don't believe me

then later love ..

promise ..

AND LATER ....

T H E R E W A S N O T L O V E . .

THERE WAS NOT LIFE
but funeral rites and golden shrine

... and then there was love


AN INSOLUBLE DILEMMA
of the amazing relation between doubt and certainty where
certainty can only be achieved if there is doubt

and doubt can only truly doubt if there is certainty!

if certainty destroys all doubt it eventually destroys itself and if doubt destroys all certainty it over-revs itself into disintegration.

the only remaining answer to this dilemma is the Mozart piano concertos, revealing the elusive essence of non-destructive dynamic summation between opposites.

 

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